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What's that I hear?

When faced with the realization that one has the propensity to (and has succeeded in) pro-creation, most men (I have read) feel this increased sense of masculinity.
Ranging from :
Who's the man? I'm the man.
all the way to:
I HAVE CREATED LIFE!!! ALL MUST BOW BEFORE ME & ACKNOWLEDGE MY MANHOOD!!!

OK, so I felt a little bit of that, but the day that we had our 2nd OB visit and near the end of it were privileged to hear a tiny little heart beating fast and strong, I can honestly say that the thing that overcame me was AWE. I was amazed, that something so miraculous (or at least half of it) could come from the likes of me!

Here I sit, hearing the doctor say things are going well. And I feel that everything is going to be OK and all of sudden whoosh,whoosh,whoosh,whoosh,whoosh I hear the heartbeat. And I am awestruck. All at once I feel so insignificant, so minuscule, like the only thing that matters now is this little heart that is beating just feet away from mine.

Every now and then, I hear the sound again in my head. And I feel it all over again. Never before has feeling so small made me feel so big!.

4 comments:

~Denise said...

You made me cry!
I LOVE YOU!!!

Rochelle said...

You are going to be a great daddy. This yanked a few tears from my eyes as well!

Saysee said...

I love reading your thoughts. You're so expressive in your writing that your feelings are felt by the reader.

Anonymous said...

You are my kind of "daddy to be"
Texas Mom